Kubota Farm Tractor Finds A Good Home
My life looks different now than it did 6 months ago. I am now single and have this place to manage alone. Boy, there is a world of difference in taking care of a 20 acre homestead with two hard-working committed people and then suddenly taking one of these individuals out of the picture. Not only does the work get behind (especially when you have two toddlers to care for 50% of the time), but the little debts that didn’t mean much before all of a sudden have new meaning when it’s basically one person responsible for honoring the debt.
Anyway, I’ve been thinking a lot about attachment and how the buddhists say attachment can lead to suffering. I feel this truth with the tractor. I have held onto it very tight for the past 6 months and everytime I thought I might have to sell it - suffering, hurt, and lack, were all byproducts as a result. Only after I was able to let go and be at peace with selling the tractor did I see the positive in it. It would knock out a big portion of my debt and would give me peace of mind knowing I am almost debt free (well, except for my farm mortgage). And how wonderful I had such an asset that will get me to debt freedom a lot sooner, which would not require me to take on more side jobs to pay the debt when I have enough around my homestead to tend to already.
I’m not sure what the buddhists think about hope, but there is a part of me that hopes that I will be in a position to buy another tractor someday, and do it in a way that does not require me to go back in debt.