Kubota Farm Tractor Finds A Good Home
Today, I said goodbye to my Kubota 43hp 4×4 tractor with all its implements, including a backhoe! I have worked through some feelings around this sale. It’s sad because I loved that tractor and used it all the time, but it’s good to know it will help me get one step closer to being debt free.
My life looks different now than it did 6 months ago. I am now single and have this place to manage alone. Boy, there is a world of difference in taking care of a 20 acre homestead with two hard-working committed people and then suddenly taking one of these individuals out of the picture. Not only does the work get behind (especially when you have two toddlers to care for 50% of the time), but the little debts that didn’t mean much before all of a sudden have new meaning when it’s basically one person responsible for honoring the debt.
Anyway, I’ve been thinking a lot about attachment and how the buddhists say attachment can lead to suffering. I feel this truth with the tractor. I have held onto it very tight for the past 6 months and everytime I thought I might have to sell it - suffering, hurt, and lack, were all byproducts as a result. Only after I was able to let go and be at peace with selling the tractor did I see the positive in it. It would knock out a big portion of my debt and would give me peace of mind knowing I am almost debt free (well, except for my farm mortgage). And how wonderful I had such an asset that will get me to debt freedom a lot sooner, which would not require me to take on more side jobs to pay the debt when I have enough around my homestead to tend to already.
I’m not sure what the buddhists think about hope, but there is a part of me that hopes that I will be in a position to buy another tractor someday, and do it in a way that does not require me to go back in debt.
T*
Kubota Farm Tractor
Category: Rants, Simple Thoughts, TreeStone Farm, Uncategorized
Everett writes about voluntary simplicity. This blog catalogs his search for "the good life" as he tries to strike a balance between work and play, freedom and responsibility, simplicity and comfort.
Hoarding seems to run in my family, so the Attachment = Suffering concept has helped me alot to get rid of stuff. It’s also very freeing when applied to abstracts, like desired outcomes and ideologies. Getting rid of debt is also very freeing
I know it was a hard decision. But to be debt free is freeing……
Yes, I agree with you both. I am already feeling much lighter being thousands of dollars less in debt!