Overcoming Fear and Going After Your Bliss
I mentioned a few weeks ago that there was going to be some good news posted here. It is official now so I can post it. I am taking a three-month leave of absence from work to write a book and spend more time with our son while Missy opens up her own retail shop in town. Both of us have long been afraid of doing what we want to do and it has created a lot of problems. We are our only roadblocks, and it’s about time we get out of our own way.
This is one of the reasons we are selling the property. It will free up a lot of time and capital needed for us to make this gigantic leap of faith. We will be staying in Floyd, Virginia. This is our home now. But we will be downsizing considerably, probably down to about 10-15 acres and a much smaller house. We may even have one more piece of good, exciting news to share on this front soon as well.
I have always wanted to write. My need to communicate via the written language is compulsive, and it is what I feel most “in flow” while doing. The world drops away. Nothing else matters. Only words to convey thoughts. Only writing to understand myself, with hopes that some people will understand the writing from a perspective of shared experiences. But I have been afraid. I have been afraid that I am not good enough. I have been afraid that I won’t know how to start or finish a book; afraid that nobody will publish it, or that nobody will want to read it. After all, just because we “want” to do something doesn’t mean we’re good at it. So my fear, not anyone else’s, has been holding me back. I have kept myself from going after my bliss. No more. Fear no longer stands in my way. Failure is OK with me because it sure beats the alternative.
Missy isn’t letting fear stand in her way either. Starting a new retail business is scary. A lot has to be done. Most such businesses fail within the first two years. But what is scarier – the thought of failing, or the thought of wondering “what if” for the rest of your life? She is a born seamstress. What most clothing designers spend years learning she can just pick up almost overnight. I am constantly amazed at what she can do with fabric. If anyone can make an Upcycled, Vintage and Repurposed clothing store work it will be her.
Failure is possible for both of us, but allowing fear to stand in our way is no longer an option.
So… forward. With as much love and grace and hope and determination and fearlessness as we can muster we have both taken big steps forward. Missy has signed the lease to her shop and is getting all of the paperwork prepared. October will begin my three-month window to get a solid start on one of two books I have outlined. Our home is up for sale and we have a great place to rent-to-own when it sells. We have done our best to prepare ourselves financially and emotionally for the leap.
No matter what happens I know things will work out. I have been experiencing this amazing feeling of “going with the flow” lately. As a friend recently said to me “If not this, then something better”. That is how I feel. I will do my part and let the river of life do its part. I am finished trying to swim upstream.
How have you overcome your fear or is fear still keeping you from going after your bliss? What do you feel most “in flow” when doing? When are you most “in the zone”? What activities make you forget about time, and all of your worries? For me it is writing, gardening and cuddling with my son. Missy loses herself in crafts, and in our son too. What do you lose yourself in?